Life Interrupted!

This is about to become my new normal! Life became interrupted this week starting on Thursday with a nosebleed that lasted close to an hour. I also had a headache that lasted four days, and the lower numbers on my bp were 107 (yes, I know how bad that is, believe it or not its been worse). Scared me silly, scared my Aunt and Uncle so bad they dropped everything and came to the house.... scared my kids and I'm sure he would never admit it but I probably even scared Marc. I was diagnosed five years ago with high bp but have to confess I was without meds for over a year in part because we have been without insurance since Marc became self employed. We honestly didn't think we could afford the fees that would come with going to my doctor without insurance. We now know it was way cheaper then we imagined and that included the office visit, the labs, and my medication. And its way cheaper then the alternative which could have been me in a hospital with a heart attack or stroke (or even worse). Several family members and friends have already given me a piece of their mind and my mom even threatened to come get me this week and take me back home with her. Yep, I really scared her (of course the fact that her 47 year old daughter was on the phone crying and freaking out would probably scare any mother). 

I do have to lose about 25 pounds, of course watch my salt intake and add exercise to the my regiment, and stress less (that may be the hardest part).

Today I tried cooking tofu and spaghetti squash for the first time. It actually turned out better then I thought. 

I'm not a big water drinker (I don't drink sodas either) but water is about to become my new best friend! By Friday evening I was beat physically and emotionally but we had a Girls Nite In scheduled that was my responsibility to lead. Unfortunately (although now we are thinking fortunately ) the weather here went crazy and we spent the day under tornado watches, wind warnings and severe thunderstorms. So we have postponed until next month. Later that night we even found out a tornado had touched down in the county over from my mom! Thankfully know one was killed.

This weekend I got a wake up call! I have to accept the fact that I may be on blood pressure medicine the rest of my life, that I will have to move this body from more then just the house to the car, and that recipes from the Daniel Fast may need to be incorporated more then just 21 days out of the year!

But the two biggest lessons I learned this weekend were that I have some great friends and family who really care about me and love me and want me around. And secondly that I can't do it all alone. I need for my team (the Women's Ministry Team and BSN) to be in the loop! That means sharing the vision, letting them know in advance what I need from them, listening to their take on things, allowing them to grow in the ministry and help carry it where it needs to go...even if I the leader is not around.

 I once read a leadership book that said you should always be looking for other leaders who could when and if needed could step up to the plate and lead in your place. Otherwise why have a team? At one point I was on the floor in the bathroom crying, shaking and bleeding like a pig (I kid you not) and my first thought was the Girls Nite In event that would have to be canceled because I couldn't run it! My second thought was I will never have a chance to get Blended Souls off the ground. One friend tweeted to me a few days later that God needed me around to do the things he called me to. My cousin called one morning to yell at me and then tell me she loved me and that I mattered to her. My uncle called to say they were not ready to lose me (and he is in his 70's!).

Even the son handed me this on his way to church Sunday morning! LOL I don't for a moment think this will be easy, and when I look around at some of the things my friends are going through I am ashamed that it took me so long to get this taken care of. I'm sure I will stumble a few times, but I realize I really do have things to do.......that God really does have a purpose and a plan for my life and I can't do any of them if I'm not here!

Oh, and I can't do it alone!!!! LOL